this year has been SO CRAZY so far… my year 24 (that really only started less than 3 months ago) has been SO memorable already… so many things have happened that I would’ve never imagined or could’ve only WISHED for… getting that call back from the AMAZING RACE and making it to the semi finalists was one of the MOST EXCITING moments of my life (haha. though i didnt make it, im SO GLAD i got to experience even that process), finally working for a XEROX company since my agency got bought out (saved me the quitting and interviewing process! God brought the company to me:D), being back on leadership again at HOC after 2 years, buying a 24 hour fitness pass for 2 years (i NEVER would’ve imagined EVER getting used to a treadmill, so i tried the ellipticals… I LOVE IT), having an awesome girl co worker I can pray with and do devos with in the morning (I waited 2 years for this…), even learning how to adjust and be friends with my sister, Grace, again after 4 years of not seeing her daily (o gosh. i hate our fights cuz we are both SOOO stubborn :/), experiencing a truly HEALED and RENEWED heart (only something God was able to do), GENUINELY enjoying and desiring to watch baseball was something I NEVERRRR EVERRRR thought I would EVER experience (AHHAa!! i cant believe i like it now)….welllllll, the latest “FIRST” that God has blessed me is my FIRST FEMALE mentor/discipler… ANGIE FANG. It’s perfect timing… and the perfect person I need to guide me, advise me, and encourage me right now. To be honest, it was a little weird because I’m usually the big sister or the one who “watches out”, but it definitely feels good to be in the position of just listening, receiving, and just taking the advice!
This is from a book she let me borrow…
“Most of us live on the borders of consciousness- consciously serving, consciously devoted to God. All this is immature, it is not the real life yet. The mature stage is the life of a child which is never conscious; we become SO ABANDONED to God that that consciousness of being used never enters in. When we are consciously being used as broken bread and poured out wine, there is another stage to be reached where all consciousness of ourselves and of what God is doing through us is eliminated. A saint is never consciously a saint; a saint is consciously dependent on God.”
- oswald chambers
