o my gosh. im so excited. this is my FIRST POST for tumblr and i seriously thought really hard what to write to kick this thing off with a BANG! now I’m writing this and realizing that I’ve been like this since I was a KID… I remember the excitement, butterflies, and even how my heart beats a bit faster each time i started something NEW…
my parents firmly believed that giving the 3 of us more homework and practices since we were able to read and write would help us be smarter… therefore, they would buy ALL THESE SUPERWORK BOOKS filled with math and english practices that we would have to do after our homework… I loved flipping through the big books because they were so new and pretty as I just held them in my hand… but after my mom purchased em and made me sit down in my little room in Texas after snack time at home to work on them- i hated it sooo much… when i got to the middle of the book, i remember just telling my mom if I could just start a new one where my handwriting wasn’t ask messy, I’d do better. When i started a new one, the same thing would happen…
It’s been FOUR days since I turned 24 :) Usually I feel the same each year… as people asked me…”soooo do you feel a year older??” i’d be like “NOPE! I still feel like a kid!” This year, I DO feel different… it’s weird because I started feeling different and ready for 24 like a bit before I left for China… I feel like I’m ready to admit that i AM an adult and not a child anymore… haha… i still remember the thought of not being a “youth” anymore made me so sad :) I suppose after working for 2 years at Xerox and experiencing what ADULTS experience, I have a real understanding of what it’s like in this world. Being in school was like being in a little bubble where reality wasn’t truly injected in me… maybe it’s because I have super responsible parents that provide everything I need and i’m REALLY thankful for that. As much as I think I’ve tasted reality… maybe I’m in another bubble at work where I haven’t even seen anything yet!!! YEA well, life IS an adventure! a mystery! a beautiful story who God is the author and finisher of!
In this new year, I’m thankful for His blood. His blood that washes me clean and gives me that HOPE to start FRESH, CLEAN, and AGAIN when I feel like I’m stuck in the middle of a mess. I really want to be CONSISTENT this year!
OK ANYWAYS! hannah’s leaving for africa tomorrowww!!! i will miss her! she’s running with chester, irving, and david right now… and i need to cut my nails and take off my glittery pink nail polish! i HOPE that jet lag will leave me tomorrow! that would be wonderful. :)
to all a GOOD NIGHT!!!
